Go for it! Just go for it! Stop being scared, get off your butt and just do it! How many of us wish it was that simple to do something we would love to do? I know I sure wish it was for me but it is not. To go for it is like crossing a tight wire with no harness to catch you if you fall and you have to make it all the way across the Grand Canyon. It is for sure you are going to fall to your death and on the way down think about how stupid you were for attempting something so idiotic. I look at the situation and think to myself I can do this no problem and I can be good at it, but then I think well what will my friends think, my family, and people I don't even know what will they say about me for trying this.
Will they laugh, mock me, giggle, think I'm foolish, and the list goes on and on. I battle everything in my being to take a chance, and like most of us I come up with a reason on why I will fail and why I should not go for it. Of course after the opportunity is gone I tell myself how I could of done so good and better than the person that is doing it now but reality has to set in and question becomes could I really? How will I ever really know since I been to afraid to go for it. Have I only looked at the beast and was not to afraid to enter its ring and bring the beast down with all my might or at least be brave enough to die in the ring trying to go for what I believe is mine, why can I not bring myself to do so. I know in my mind, my heart, and my soul what needs to be done, yet when it comes that time I'm like a runner about to make the last sprint to win the race but comes up short with a cramp and only to wonder what would of happened if I had not cramped. Live in that dimension where belief and reality start to mix until you are not sure what the truth is, just becomes a figment of your imagination where you make it sound better than it really was. Do I do this in shame? Knowing I never took the chance and don't want others to know that I was to scared to ever take that chance? If it is because I don't want people to know I was scared and it is because of what people may think I do not take the risk that I feel I should take where does that put me in the balance of life? You need balance and my balance is so unbalanced that I would almost have to dive in the water with flesh hungry sharks to put some balance of risk vs safe back in balance. Does not success come with risk? If I wish to be successful I must take risk but instead stay in the safety net of what I know and what I become used to. One day I hope to have answers of how I overcame but for now I only have stories of how I stopped when I should have gone, where I stalled when I should have dove in, and maybe with more self awareness and practice I can rewrite the history of me. How the pages will look different in the later chapters than they did in the beginning. How this character should change into what he is instead of what he ought to be and at the end hold head high with arms up in victory. Victory is not being successful but not being afraid to take the risk that could lead to success, to not sit on the sidelines of life and start to breath life back out instead of fear. To allow myself the opportunity to overcome my fears and go for the things that I wish for with all my being and at the end if I get them or not to know that I did everything humanly possible to get them. Success is being able to hold my head up high even if I fall short I can still be satisfied knowing I tried. That I went for it and win or lose that nobody can say I didn't just go for it.
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