Poem- Incomplete

Through the days through the hours, I do not possess the power
Not to think, not to hope, not to believe that I will be with you
The reel plays in my mind of the memories we made
Tormenting my being, not seeing you in the bed where you once laid
The pictures so vivid and so real that I'm not sure if I'm dreaming or awake
Is this hell or is this heaven or a test to try not to break
I'm bending with every thought, seems about to split, can hear the cracking as you consume my mind
I was told it would get better with time,
Oh how they lied, they lied to me, with such ease they lied
Trust all gone, drained, no more, still you have the nerve to ask me to look you in the eyes
I played your game of games that led me to this place where horror has met my reality
The mentality of what could be  has left the actuality
So leave! Leave me here to be, and let me die my lonesome death
For I will rumble and ramble and scower even after they put me to rest
Unlike many I have been able to touch and to know what it's like to have the best
Once you have it you cannot go back to the mediocrity that you once knew
Only one thing will satisfy the soul, that being you.
That of what angels sing about and what heavens dream of
That man cannot make only the lord above
What men sacrifice their life for and send out a 1000 ships
For that moment of where a heartbeat skips, for when we share our lips
Burn down a 1000 villages and 1000 more to get it back
No man or beast that should not fear attack
Cause I shall not tire or rest till it is returned to me
For I go blind your love allows me to see
I awake in a sweat and realize what I must do
I must do whatever it takes to get back with you.
It is you that I loved, and it is you that holds my destiny
It is you I would sacrifice my life for, It is you, Yes it is you.
So don't say a word without listening to everything I say
If love was to let me down, life should go astray
Death bringing the solitude I search for, oh how I pray for that day
For If I had to choose death or you, it would be you
But these are the choices I face, so is it you?